The Sole's Delight

As the weather begins to turn and I look forward to another spring and summer, I have mixed emotions. I am always excited about being out in warm summer nights, the energy of the city, all the events going on and of course... my birthday celebration. However, this will be my first life celebration without either one of my parents. It will also mark the first anniversary of the passing of my mother and best friend. Every morning I wake up thankful and with much cause to be happy. When I think about that fact that one day my mom literally just did not wake up, I fight the urge to allow my chest muscles to tighten and just breathe. You here about those things in the news or CSI episodes, but never did I imagine something so unexplainable and unfathomable would happen to someone I love so dearly. This last 10 months have been an exercise in faith, trust, release, and acceptance. Proud at the fact that I am able to wake up and smile over what I have while still hurting over what I...

A poem came to me today and it goes a little something like this: Today the universe spoke to me It I heard promise and hope My spirit has been recognized Validation is mine Mr. Could be Right is knocking at my door Mr. Never Been Right is the same evermore Mrs. Know Your Place is still lost Ms. Second place is always lurking behind corners But I am here Better Stronger Wiser More Lovely than ever before What's my name?

The funny thing about having a dream is that you have to put in the work to make it a reality, even when you don't see anything happening. What makes it even harder is that the people around you are watching, eagerly awaiting your failure with as much enthusiasm as celebrating your potential success. Everyone has to pay dues and sacrifice certain comforts to get what they want. I am no exception. I am early in this process and I find myself getting frustrated more than I expected but it's all good. Successful do what others are not willing to do (or so they say). Today's post has been my personal self-motivation session. For all the friends, family and sisters I have, sometimes I still need an intimate cheering section. So intimate in fact that it's just me. So my internal voice is pushing me forward in my pursuits of the vision.

The Mirriam-Webster Dictionary defines Evolution as "a process of continuous change from a lower, simpler, or worse to a higher, more complex, or better state : growth (2) : a process of gradual and relatively peaceful social, political, and economic advance"   We are ever-evolving, ever-changing beings. Life is a process and a journey. I am sure we have heard this before but to really grasp the concept of managing (as much as is in your control) your journey through life and always maintaining the attitude of gratitude is a HUGE. Anywho, I have committed to writing an entry every day to document the process of designing my shoes and the concept of evolution came to mind. I started out just with a love, documenting the shoes that I had or wanted to purchase. The stories turned into this blog, which is my external self therapy. The blog turned into the Facebook page with a challenge of finding the most visually stimulating shoes that I could find. The Fac...

Today's thought is all about construction and building. Taking elements from my thoughts and experiences and creating something new and beautiful. I chose this bootie because the lines are clean, the structure is solid, the colors and form are simple yet elegant. I feel like this the stage in which I am. On my road to doing what has been done but in only a way in which I can do it, I am starting from scratch. Teaching mysely how to sketch, studying designers and all types of shoes, I am a student of the craft. I look forward to developing new skills and refining my eye. Work In Progress...

On this first day of the year, everyone is very optimistic about the promise of 2012. I am no exception. This will be my first year without my ace (Mom) and my rock (Dad). I don't feel alone, but I am stepping out to manifest the passions within. Life should be a celebration of freedom, purity and joy. Rather than make a resolution, I choose to follow my goal of turning my life into my own celebration. When my parents died, I cried but not for long. Through faith and love I know they have transcended this world are ever present with our higher power. I can't be sad about that. It brings me more than comfort to know they are at peace, it makes me happy. I am part of their purpose and I hope that I can touch lives as powerfully as they have.